☆Dreamjournal☆

I was busy making a video for school with people near some train tracks. Then i was making a doll with some friends while watching music videos from the 70s.
Much later i went alone to a rave that had electronic punk music. I came over to some friends first. We danced around.
On the way to the rave i overheard ppl behind me while cycling talking about minecraft chocolate sprinkles that they havent eaten that in years. I was more thinking about the chocolate sprinkles with a few chocolate colored monkey heads, because i dont recall minecraft sprinkles.

At the rave the room was red and the dj was in the middle. It was actually some sort of a boiler room. There were beams above me where people were sitting. Someone was shouting/singing with the music in the middle of the crowd. It went pretty hard. It felt like it was a student-only party or something.
I suddenly saw flashes of two guys going to raves, party at abandoned or cracked up student houses, and do crazy adventures. They were called 'The X-Boys' because they were known to do the most illegal stuff. I think the 'X' referred to the movie 'Project X' cuz that makes alot more sense. But these X-Boys got away everytime they did something.


I found a way to earn money by going to a huge house to learn English. But everyone else was having a different goal. Some wanted to take their pills right, some wanted to become santa (without assaulting kids), some wanted to become better at gardening.
It was a big huge house of one couple that will guide us trying to reach our goals. They said to watch eachother as family.

After a while staying in that house the owner said to me: ‘well, he will be your new grandpa *taps on the head of the santa dude.’
‘Nice.’
5 people include:
- 19 year old guy
- 16 year old girl
- A mom
- 7 year old girl
- 12 year old kid

I played some games with them and during a convo the 16yo girl was talking about how her bf cheated on her. Then i suddenly remembered that one 19 year old guy’s gf kissing someone else at a party.
‘Ohnoo, not that time.’ He said.
That 16 yo girl saw him getting a boner and pointed it out. He stood up and everyone was like ‘aahh mannn wtf.’
‘Sorry guys because of yall im not taking my pills right.’


At the Museum:
- Pinata shaped like a tiger
- Giraffe that can fold in itself
- Something shaped like a birthday cone that u can blow in
- Art performance of a guy that lives naked around animals for an entire year
- African modern art
- There was a painting that appeared in a game - It was a painting of a cool park/nature place with random creatures sitting around
- Heart with spiderlegs ish , you could see organs in the heart

We had to fill in a magazine of which art of the same artist you find cooler. It was clearly the Heartshaped spider with visible organs for me.
While we were filling the magazine i met random ppl. One girl who is rich asfuck but fun to be around with. And a clumsy guy who i work with at a burger restaurant.

At the restaurant there was a random lady coming in wanting to use the bathroom: she was allowed. There was a burger left on the table and i wanted to eat it so i took it to the kitchen. That guy i work with said it was the burger for the owner of the restaurant and he knew i was hungry so he made a new one real quick before she arrived to that table. ‘hey where is my burger?’ She said after coming out of the bathroom. He gave her the burger immediately.
It was a Bagelburger where the buns were filled with cream. Hamburger, salad, cheese, tomato, cucumber, bacon

Then the rich girl came over and asked us to go shopping and we said yes. So we walked around and she pointed at a fancy building and asked me: ‘have you ever bought something from the Circle?’
‘The circle? What is that?’
‘The circle, where u buy clothes?’
‘OHHH the circle yeah iknow it, havent been there though.’
‘Its really good!‘
‘Yeah i just only buy clothes that are like… 25 cents so.’
‘Letsgo go to the circle! You HAVE to be there! But first we need to change outfits, you wanna come with me?’
‘Sure!’ Iknew somehow that my mom buys stuff there

Much later that guy and me were goofing around and he was trying to impress me with tricks like doing a salto or jumping off things -> he fell hard on his face and we laughed SO hard.


Idk what i was doing first but after that i was about to go home.
I was at an intersection trying to cross. There were cool mushrooms growing next to the road hanging above it and also furthur away like trees. Then a huge bus came by and stopped when there was traffic jam. Some friends were in that bus and i heard them saying hi to me and then i heard them murmur to eachother: ‘yo should we ask if she could join us?’, ‘Yeah man’,
‘Yooo do u wanna join us??’
I was like ‘suree’ and i entered the bus and i started smoking weed with them and drawing the view.
After a while we were somewhere else and then I realized it was fucking 1 am and busses dont go anymore at 1 am to go back home so i had to stay with them at the hotel. Turns out we were all the way at the border of Belgium at a lake. There was a mountain called ‘Unspoken’ or somethin. We drove by a tornado that waited for us to pass by and then went on. Then it looked at some cool abandoned houses and then ian said: ‘yo thats where my mom likes to live in in that architecture.’

We were at the hotel. I went to the toilet and suddenly a woman appeared: ‘the borders of every country is no ones land. Especially when theres a river or some weird other huge area where u have to cross over.’ she said.
I had to know which busses went back as soon as possible so i searched it up and apparently you need a code to find out so i grabbed my old science book with answers and i finally got it. There was a bus that went at 1 pm.
After a while it was already almost 1pm so i went for a walk to the busstation. I was making pictures on the way of colored fences at an allotment. And i took a picture of a random tweaker who was with his dog. He was fighting the dog but then he calmed down. I accidentally deleted the best pic T^T, that felt devastating.

I was sitting in the bus and suddenly these flashes of two guys came in my head as i was staring at the view. They were both raised in a weird house and apparently this area was back in the day a military area. They had to build everything themselves when they were teens, even putting windows in their own home. There were lots of jets flying and you would hear a few explosions in the distance for practice.
Now this town is just cracky abandoned but nice and quiet.


I was home and my bf tattoed animations on his arm in my bathroom. And he bought a new shirt. When i looked at it there were two pictures on both sides so i turned them around constantly and they both changed. I thought i was hallucinating so i thought i could use these for creative perposes. They looked like metalshirts with their albums and stuff.

My neighbor Dwight and his wife got killed by other ppl because of sometbing bad they did. It was on tv. They got roasted half naked on a stick and tied up with blue ropes. Ppl made cuts in their arms, legs and stomach to put chickenflesh in it and were sticking chicken feathers onto them. Dwight said: ‘omygod no way this is happening! Ive always dreamed to get sacrificed like this!’

I went upstairs to the attic to talk to mom what she was doing and she found my old chilhood toys. I could see the skyline of the cool city from our window and it looked either like Berlin, Paris or Milan.
My mom then looked out the window and saw that the neighbors bought a leopard again: ‘ohno not again. the neighbors baught a new panther!’ she said.
I saw the leopard trying to get over our fence, so she went to the neighbors. They lived in cool shack looking houses and they looked and behaved like characters from Gummo. There was a grandma, another woman and two daughters and one boy. My mom was mad and then they got the leapord away from us.

I decided to hangout with my friends and we went on a long adventure. Like, really long.
We went by train and bus to different cities. On the way i read about a story from a japanese writer called 'Hakazuki'. The story was about a girl who had an aranged marriage. But she didnt wanted to marry so she had to cut off something in her ears so that she couldnt hear anymore. Her father had such a huge castle. It looked a bit mixed with spanish/arabic and indian royal architecture.
When she was about to marry the families arrived together, but the group was so small they only used 3 big tables and people were constantly changing tables to talk to other people because it became awkward. She married eventually. Idk what the climax of the entire story was after, unfortunately.
The bus shook me out of the daydreaming/reading and my friends said: ‘yo we got to get outta here.’ And then they looked at the map and we went into an alley and suddenly we were in egypt?.
Everything was kinda sandy and there were cool old buildings. I saw huge cats walking around that you would see on egyptian heroglyphs. Me and someone else were walking a different direction and walked inside an arena on accident. Prisoners were imprisoned on the side while people were sitting above them. A few participants were already in the arena with other ppl walking around with bowls of money in their hands that people would throw their money in. I saw a skinny old man put a bowl upside down on a participent to show that they're going to participate. We went out of there quickly because one other person tried to get us to participate.

We went to a place were everyone was high and we were trying to find out friends. They were there. There were multiple rooms inside of minihills and ppl were sitting around taking drugs or smoking weed. There were ‘existentialism room’, ‘safety room’, ‘food room’, ‘drink room’, ‘sleep room’. And i went into a room that got some sort of philosophical name to it but when i got in i saw artwork of dicks and the temp. was super hot in it. There was also an old video of people performing an orgy and they got some sort of silvery body paint on them. I got out of there and then had a random conversation with some people.


I was at a random house showering but i took too long. I was trying to wash my hair but the soap wasnt… soaping? Some other guy bonked on the door if i was done and i was like fuck it and washed the soap off of my hair. Then when i went out of the bathroom dressed up i grabbed my jacket and found out that my jacket had secret christmas lights in it and more pockets. I called my bf and was like YOOO IAN LOOK WHAT I DISCOVERED ABOUT MY JACKET. And he was like WOAAHH COOOL. And then he said that i was so beautiful and astonishing and said: ‘u should sign up for a beauty contest.’ And i said: ‘foreal?’ ‘Yeah there’s one in town where we can go to.’ I was like ‘sure’ and we went driving there. His mom was driving the car with the both of us in the backseat listening to the radio that i took from the house where i was at. We all were singing a song but idk what song again.

When we got there there were so many children i said: ‘uhh you sure it’s for us too and not just children and young teens?’ But yes i finally saw some older ppl. Suddenly when we got out of the car i had a bike so i was like: ‘lets park this boi real quick.’ And while i was parking it my bf was gone. I thought maybe he was already in there but idk.
When i went inside i suddenly entered Pharrel William’s party/exhibition and welcomed me. I had an awful feeling about this guy and showed me and his other family and friends this AI screen where we could talk to his AI children (he had real kids but they didnt wanted to be filmed for this party/exhibition so instead he made them AI) so he said: ‘say hi to my kids! You can even ask them questions.’ Bro i was like hell nahww and went outta there. Then Pharrel saw me walking away and wanted to show me another artwork he made: ‘have you heard of this piece?’ I said no.
‘This is about people who steal their ideas from the internet trying to convince other people that they made it.’ Idk what the artwork looked like but it looked like a meme.
I went further into another room that was the stripper room and heard women moan everywhere so i was like NOPE so i got outta there. Then i entered a house where there were people from my age living in there. I joined them somehow and apparently they were assasins who kill people for money. They had teachers there too so it was some sort of private assassin school.
When it went dark they went sleeping but i wanted to go outside. The whole building where i was happened to be a big fancy old mansion. There was an artpiece outside where you can walk through it and there was a woman and a man sort of playing in it running around. The man tried to find her in the artwork and the woman playfully hid herself in it. Then i hid myself too and then suddenly a bearhand from the artpiece reached out to me trying to grab me. Then i ran and stumbled upon that man and he was like: ‘oh huh you’re not her, who are you?’ And then i hid myself again and ran away. Then i stumbled upon some plushies that were supposed to help cats but each of them were fucked up sewn together. They still looked cute and soft though so i pet them. But then some of them turned back into some girls from that assasin group saying ‘hahaha we caught you.’ They werent killing me, we were chillng after. Alot of people from that group stayed up late and taking weed and drugs. One of them burned some old drugs stuff in a book in a mini container inside. I was like:’ yo do it outside! Else the fire alarm will go off, there’s still smoke coming out of it!’ Then she went outside burning it in the huge garden.


It was in the middle of nowhere, where my grandma's house was at. The house looked alot like Ron weasley's house but bigger with more rooms randomly attached to it, made from wood.
I was there because i loved to go there and walk around the halls and corridors to read books and hang around. First i was baking apple pie with her and then i had to clean up some rooms. At that moment i found near my grandma's room one little empty room behind the stairs. It felt like something was supposed to be here but now it's cleaned up as if it was something i shouldn't see. After i crawled out of it my grandma was standing in the hall next to her room's door staring into my soul. 'Oh hey grandma haha, i was just cleaning.' She didn't answer and i went downstairs to clean another room while she continued staring at me.
That was scary. Grandma is hiding something.


I cycled with someone next to the mini highway through the countryside and they said on the way: ‘all trains drive on nuclear energy.’ I was like naahh..?
Then I went with friends somewhere random to hangout with. One time just in my yard and then there was a little child and we had to take care of her. Me and one of my best friends and that kid also whore the same shirt. There were two blue horses underneath a rainbow on a grassfield and each shirt were different colors (blue, pink and white).

After that there was a time that we were hanging out in a fancy old mansion. The room where we were in looked like an old restaurant with checkered tiles and high white ceilings and white walls with lots of wood work. The benches were lemongreen and the tables were made of metal, like we were in some American cafe. There were also babyyellow poles at the walls and there were windows with drawings on them. One of my friends was giving a presentation with pink slides and metal heading fonts that went like:

Slide 1:
First i was happy with me but later it went al to shit so, been there, done that, still in it.

Slide 2:
TATATATATATIOTOTYOTA

- Qa i mir
- These words dont mean nothing
- Unless you start to make actual sentences so that people can understand what you’re saying

Slide 3:
you dont know who you are yet

- Dont let other people decide that
- Cuz else you’re gonna make up words
- And then: mah shiti frosbitev mehlah
- AKA: you’re gonna be cursed

Slide 4:
Slide 4

Slide 5:
CURE

- what do u think?

Lastly I saw flashes of a lady that made spiderhairstyles and put some loonng sticks onto her fingers so that she would look like one. Or she would look like a crab sometimes idk. She had different styles but fruitsmagazine type. The background was colorful and sometimes under water while i heard the song 'Banana Shake (sped up)' by HUS in the back. The styles that the woman had were:

1:
Blond hair in a bun with spiderlegs around the forehead to her ears.
She put orange sticks onto her fingers and whore a black dress with white legging and black heels.

2:
Orange hair in a bun with and entire spider above her forehead.
Yellow sticks on fingers.
Purple short dress.
Checkered monochrome leggings with black heels.

Idk the rest but in my dreams she looked insane in a good way.


I was at a sort of magic school, but it was really small. It was in a mini church and we did lots of activities.
We went walking through the country side and suddenly saw a huge group of goats passing by and i said to one of my friends: ‘hey ive dreamed about this before.’
‘Maybe you can see the future’ They said.
‘haha i wish.’

Also during one class there was a guy that was in love with a friend of mine and he gave her a box and said: ‘this is how much love i have for you.’ And we all knew what was in the box.
In this school it was a tradition to give someone you love a box with a snake in it. U will hand over, the one you're going to give it to, a knife and let them cut the snake. The amount of blood that flows out of the snake will determine how much the love is for them. So the more blood the bigger the love. It doesnt always have to be for someone you love. U can also give it to someone u hate, cuz the snake will not even bleed.
But he handed the box to my friend and she opened it and got scared and the snake jumped immediately out of it. Instead, he killed it for her. She yelled: ‘never do this to me!’ While the whole floor was in blood till our ankles. And he definitely confessed to her with more words while she was scared, haha.

Later that day two people had a fight or something and one of them stepped up to the principal. There was a smal hal were you can see the two floors beeing devided with pillars. So while that person was talking to the principal on the second floor everyone was listening to them on the first floor right underneath them. But i was approximately standing across the group behind a pillar, because i didnt care much about it, and looked up to them talking. Then the principal looked down and saw me looking so they went into the principals room and closed the door. Everyone was like ‘aahh man.’


There was a Festval in a huge courtyard park in Paris. I slept at someone elses family's house (i knew them). At the festival I was playing with a 10yr old kid from that family, while i saw other kids playing around. There were also 18/19yr old guys cosplaying around as wizards in black robes. One of them suddenly froze while holding 3 playing cards in his right or left hand. I minded my business.

I was standing on a hill and that 10yr old kid was down the hill and he asked: 'Can you throw a big wooden log down?' (Btw, he was dressed the same as is father: blue blouse and off-white pants). So i answered 'sure' and threw a wooden log that i found. 'watch out!' i said. I threw it wrong and hit the kids head. He sat crouched and curled up and started crying while i rand up to him. He was scared: 'I have to pay my taxes! I'm sorry, i'm sorry, i have to do chores, i'm sorry!.'
'Stop, you're acting like your father, I'ts going to be okay,' i said.
After that i let him have some ice cream to cool down and went together to his parents afterwards.

It became dark and we decided to go back to his grandpa's and grandma's house next to the park where we all stayed at. The grandchildren and the cousins were playing a card game together and i joined them. I cannot remember much but it started with handing out the cards. Everyone gets one card from the "leader" (who doesn't play within the game, they just lead) who sits in the middle while everyone sits in a circle. It was all about who starts first according to the card you were given randomly.
Here, the King is first, then the Lady, then Farmer and Ace is at last after the normal numbers (1 to 10). The symbols also count: Hearts is first, then Diamonds, then Clubs and finally Spades.
So for example, if someone has a 5 of Hearts and the other has a King of Spades, the one with the 5 of hearts may start first.
The "leader" then has to do something with the cards who starts first, but idk what happened next. It was a truth or dare game that resulted in a pose show off who had the best pose. You were teamed up with the poeple you ended up with because of the game. The grandpa took a picture of us. I was with 5 people doing apose where u was on the ground with someone and the other 3 people standing behind us.
I also remember when i forgot to grab a card at the beginning of the game, i decided to grab a card from the cosplaying wizards at the park on the hill. That on dude was still frozen but i grabbed a black card out of his hand, that got #4 written on it with white letters. After i took it i spawned back in the living room where we played the game. The living room was filled with family members and it felt like it was a Christmas dinner party.

Then the next morning was a nightmare. There was a cursed shack house at the festival too but mostl people didn't believe it it, so me and another girl i met there were trying to prove it. This girl had a little brother so she took him with her. The reason why we wanted to prove it was that her sister died in that house and wanted to know if her spirit was still in there. So there were bunk beds in this shack next to the front door. We slept in it and then suddenly during midnight, the little brother was standing in the middle of the room looking at a spirit. His sister said: 'What are you looking at?' 'Thats sister.' She went out of bed and me too. We saw a dark shadow creepy pasta lookin figure standing at the front door. Suddenly the girl (not the spirit) was floating towards the ceiling and dissapeared. I tried to protect the boy but before i could've done it i was send upwards too. Then when i turned around i saw google translate in front of my eyes, which was soo random that i woke up laughing.


I was at an international school where we get trained to fight some monsters. Uhm but it aso looked like a cult in there... i'll tell you later about that. I was going to the toilet with some friends and they were talking about that all guys here at this school were hot asf. BAHAHA. And we were talking about reindeirs. They would vomit after they've flown Santa across the world because they have used too much energy. Suddenly at that moment an evil looking reindeir showed up and destroyed the toilet. We killed it afterwards.
But uhhh... the reason why this school looked like a cult too was because there would be a ceremony where boy students who wanted to participate dance naked in a circle. I was like: 'What the fuck is going on?!' Apparently the school wanted to celebrate some offerings and give condolences to the dead people or something.

After that was done, a teacher asked me to slay another monster outside of school that got loose, with 3 other people. We had to go by bike to a large bridge where the were 3 monsters near by. 1 girl and a guy went to the monster on the bridge and 1 other guy was on his way to slay the monster nearby. He was a bit late but he said that he's going to handle it himself. This monster was a weird glob with different humanlimbs attached to it's body.

I had to slay the other monster so i went to the place where it was mentioned. I cycled over another large bridge next to the other large bridge. I left my bike at the aldi next to a gasstation. It was in the city so i ran but couldn't find the monster. I decided to go back to get my bike but ended up in different area's. I even went through someone's house, while they were celebrating someone's birthday, to find my bike, but failed. The city became one big backroom. I was running alot and didn't got tired but i decided to stop. I tried to find some wifi to look on Google Maps so i went to a mall under an appartment building where people live. The entrance was small like it looked like it was a small store. And then i woke up...


I was at a summer camp. We were making art and in one class we had to make an essay about someone else's art. You had to take a paper out of the box with someone's name on it. I got 'Gavin' so i had to make an essay about this guy's art. I have no idea what i made though, i forgot.

But Gavin made a video of different types of 'Garbage' in a toilet what people would throw away at some sort of frat party.
He mixed the garbage and made a video of them. It was shot inside the toilet so it looked like it's the pov of someone's shit that they forgot to flush. You could see him and other people throw stuff in it and they weren't flushing it down.
They threw used cups, confetti, LOTS of pills, color stuff, food, even living goldfishes.
He made different video's of what he was mixing:

- cups with food
- fishes with confetti
- pills with color paint
- sigarettes and fake barf

He zoomed in on the mixed stuff and filmed it in slowmotion. Surprisingly, at the end, it looked quite beautiful but also discusting at the same time. He even added a blurry random guy pissing in it for the shot, hahaha.

Later i found out that THIS GUY, Gavin, took my name out of the box. He came up to me and said: 'So, hows the essay going?'
'It's going fine, really interesting haha, how's yours going?'
'Really well. I'm actually glad i took your name out of the box, because your art is actually my favourite.' LOL


I woke up in the backseat of a car in a deserted area where you could see a skyline of a city (it looked alot like Tokyo). What i can remember is that i wore a moss-green shirt with a dark blue/black vest over it, and wore low waisted blue jeans with converse shoes.

Everything went dark and then suddenly i was in a car with my mom. She drove me to a party i was planning to go to. We went under a little bridge and took the first left to go on the bridge taking a second left. When we arrived to a house on a hill she dropped me off and drove me away.
It was very clear outside and could feel the burning sun on my skin against the cold wind.

The house was standing alone there with no neighbors. There was a canal in the backyard and i could see all my friends hangout outside around the house. They were greeting me and took me inside, where the interior looked really nice.
You immediately stepped into a pink living room with the couch on the right side and the tv on the left. It was a block tv and people where watching some history events on it, like how Hitler invaded the Netherlands and about discrimination against black people. You could also see the hall from the living room and it got a different wall color: blue.

I continued walking to the backyard to drink with friends. I drank lots of alcohol and could taste the bittersweet flavour of it. I felt quite dizzy and my friends, who were swimming in the canal said to me: 'Come join us! It feels so good! The water will go with your flow.'
So i jumped in the canal while i saw all those glass cups on the dock. And when i was floating in the water i saw yellow stickynotes of a drawn person falling into the water, flashing on my eyes, as if it was made by a child. I saw myself laying there with my friends while the sun was reflecting on the canal. It looked like a vhs video in 720 pixels.

After that i went inside and hungout with the people in another huge room where the loudest music took place. That room was behind glass windows with curtains in front of it from the inside. It was right next to the living room. When i went in there, the walls were pink and there were lots of red/pink lights aswell. There were also yellow and green stuff there, but it was so crowded, which was fun. You could see the DJ going ham and most people also whore glowsticks around them.
Another friend said to me: 'If you want to get out of here, you have to stretch your warms forward as if you're going to take a dive in a vertical swimming pool. You will see people pushing you towards the door.' I was dancing for a while and then i got tired so i did what she told me to do. It felt like a strong force was pushing me forward. I arrived at the door in seconds and the people were closing the door behind me immediately.

I was walking around the house on my way to the toilet. I saw a bed with a pink prosthetic leg on it. The other room was filled with books. The toilet was a bathroom at the same time but it was nothing special with it's off-white tiles.

I began to hangout with the people watching tv. Now they were watching an episode on the Wonderfull World of Gumball, but this time the name was 'The Wonderfull World of Nicole', Gumballs mother.
Here in this episode her left brain left the head because it was fighting with the right brain. So Nicole and her right brain started searching for her left brain. On the way, Nicole's head looked swollen and weird while also being half dead a couple times.
Eventually they found the left brain back and it was weird how the left brain entered back inside the head. It was one big trip while the brain was getting morphed, YUCK.

Other people went to the party room where there was techno and they asked me to come with them but i rejected the offer. I found peace with the tv people, sitting on the soft red Middle-East mat, not even using the couch fully but only as back support.


It was snowing outside and i was at a school in a monastery. I had geography and history class. After that we had a joint geography exam, but the rules were weird. We had to make the exam half-naked with shorts from school. I was insecure about it because i didn't want anybody to see my bare legs and arms so i was doubting to make the exams.

I talked to 2 random friends (i don't know them) and one girl said: 'It's not going to be bad, no one's staring, okay, it will be alright.' One other person said to go to the principle but i didn't know where he was.
But another friend was very chill about it like it is what it is. He had shoulder legnth brown/blond hair, and whore all black with a beanie. He said: 'yeah shit, being insecure can be tough man. But, you know... comparing yourself to others is like comparing a paprika with zucchini, or no wait, comapring pringles with a pineapple.'
I was really confused (in the dream) so i stepped to the teacher while crying and she said to ask another teacher. Eventually i was talking to a teacher while being able to skip the exam.

It was already night and we decided to go outside. I started talking about anything to him and it felt foreal nice.
When the exam was done everyone dressed themselves again and started to go outside too. We proceeded to have a snowball fight with a few people and after that we started stargazing on a snowy hill next to the school. We saw the constellation 'Orion" and it was very visible between the other stars.